I turn the fan on full blast
while the deafening mixes of New Year-related noise of firecrackers, fearless
beats of large speakers playing novelty songs and murmur of night
street-traffic are battling outside. This situation makes me slam and lock the
door of my room from the inside. I lift and sip this 18-minute old cup of
coffee near the laptop I am facing right now.
My anxieties again. How could that be? The year is over? Again? Another
year? I put down the coffee on the table. I brushed my newly cut hair with both
of my palms and bury my head in the middle of my arms, gently closing my eyes. I
take a deep breath. Then I start writing this year-ender note. I just feel it’s
an obligation I need to fulfill not just to myself but also to the rest of the
world. Or more specifically, my world.
If last year I
summarized my 2012 with 12 people who made outstanding contribution to my year,
I came up with a new idea for 2013. It took me a week selecting these. I
finally mustered the courage and faced reality that these photos are the ones
that mattered most to me in 2013.
And here they
are. My 13 most favorite photos of 2013:
13.
BATCH BALANCES Graduation Tribute Party
Dubbed as THE LAST SNOW, I picked this as one of my most favorite 2013 moments because this occasion was one of the most emotional ones I’ve had not just this year but also for many years that passed. More than I expected, the hardships in college, as I always put it, both destroyed me and made me a better person more than anything. This event highlighted the emotions I have kept for 5 years. My entire batch and other people heard what I had been meaning to tell the world since then. This event also saw how hard I worked outside the normal and regular times I was at school – my extracurricular activities. And of course, it was the most genius idea that I had it spent with people who knew more than anyone else how hard things were and how we managed to survive them all together.
12. MINDANAO
STATE UNIVERSITY’S 53rd Foundation Night Celebration
God knows how much I missed the campus. There is not a single day that an aspect of the school leaves my mind. I can proudly say that I am a “University Guy” because apart from loving the life in the campus, I could say that I love the university itself. I mean that genuinely. Even now that I already graduated. I can count in one hand the number of events where students could go out very, very late at night and celebrate. The August 31, eve of the Foundation day has always been one of my favorites. The feel of freedom, the night lights, the loud band, the swarm of people and the always-awaited fireworks are definitely unforgettable. I got to spend this night with my MSU – Honors Program family. With them, that night couldn’t have been better.
11. READYING MY
SEMI-ACADEMIC BABIES TO HEAD HOME
I always refer my
trophies and medals as my “semi-academic babies”. “Babies” because they are
“fruits” of hard work, dedication, determination and sacrifices. A lot of
people who knew me well way back college know that I wasn’t just an addict of
quiz shows, essay writing and semi-academic events. They know that all these
were my life all those 5 years. If you can notice my eyes on this picture, you
could tell that apart from being a physical activity of arranging them, this
must have also been very emotional for me. I remember all the skipped classes,
quizzes, exams. I remember the gastritis and euphoria during quiz shows. The
pressure. The losses. The wins. The quiz-friends. The grammatical mistakes. The
words. The love of knowledge. The love of being not a typical student.
10. POST-OCTOBER 2013 BOARD EXAM MINI-BALANCES REUNION
People know that I
did not take the board exam because of selfish reasons or selfless excuses
depending on whom you heard the story from. I always say that I couldn’t ask
for a better batch in college. I met a lot of undyingly determined people who
are both street-smarts and academically commendable. Some of them did their
reviews in Luzon, Visayas and in Mindanao. I started working then when they
were in their review. Things were indeed very challenging for me. I let them
know how I felt but I also pushed myself to remind them of the things they were
so capable of. With this night of treat from Pyang and July after their actual
board exam, this mini-BALANCES get-together was a night I always dreamt months
before that.
9.
MSU – HONORS PROGRAM PROBATIONARY ACCEPTANCE 2013
This photo was
accidentally taken at Midway Park in Initao minutes before the Probationary
Acceptance of HP happened. I made quite a few on-campus visits before this so
the members and applicants of the program still had the chance to see me often
unlike other Program Alumni. But the intrigue of the partly-lit night, the time
we spent sitting on this big chunk of tree only few feet away from the raging
waters, the white sand, the talks, the laughter, the fun, the experience and
the feeling of belongingness all redefined this very moment.
8. RFJPIA REGION 10 & CARAGA -
ANNUAL REGIONAL CONVENTION WORD WIZARD CHAMPION
Jade, Florence, and Pyang were
with me as we won my most favorite event every ARC. This was a quiz show I could
never forget. There was this line, “MAIN versus BRANCH” that described MSU –
Main VS MSU – IIT round that really made it accidentally so much more fun for
me. How could I ever forget that I was about to cry when the other opponent
team in our own one-on-one mini-round took me out of my own team rendering me unable
to play at all for the succeeding questions? I was so scared but the
expectations I had for my teammates were more than surpassed. I can also still
remember Pyang saying, “I’ll pretend na matalino ako para sakaling maunahan
nila tayo nang pagsagot, ako ang una nilang taggalin.” Oh God, that was just
priceless!
7.
EXCURSIONS AFTER THE LAST HELL WEEK IN COLLEGE
Of all weeks in College,
Hell Week, that week where exams are on irresistible parade is definitely the
least favorite. This picture was taken after our last HELL WEEK in college. For
a degree which has a lot of dramas, ups and downs and for a group of people who
are more dramatic and with a higher number of ups and downs than normal, you
could see in this picture how we felt like we evolved but we still acted like
little kids. When you are just very thankful for the things that you have after
a storm, the taste of freedom and victory would always break some grounds.
6. BELKIN PIONEERS – ATLANTA
HAWKS
When
I decided that I would start working, I never expected that I signed up for
this. I thought it would be very normal, boring, plain, and serious. However,
my Teammates from Atlanta Hawk from Soft skills, to Tech Training, to TQ, to actual
call handling and to the many other activities in and outside work gave a whole
new definition of “Work Hard, Play Hard.” They are just people who gave me
reasons to wake up on mornings and days when things weren’t easy anymore. Some of us might have left or crossed other
paths but undeniably, tripping down the memory lane of those days will always
give us huge smiles. Smile we always had and we always will have.
5. MY GRADUATION DAY – APRIL 2013
I’ll
get back to a line I mentioned on picture no. 13. That line where I said “College
both destroyed me and made me a better person more than anything”. I got
destroyed primarily because I took risks I wasn’t supposed to take. That right
there is way beyond me to explain. You only graduate College once. Even if you
take another degree next, the first graduation is always the hardest to forget.
You see how the caps are tossed up in the air on this photo? I always thought
that it was so cheesy to do this. But when I was the one doing it, it didn’t
feel cheesy at all because when you look at the cap that you throw up in the
air and it gets back to you, you don’t see the cap as an object anymore. You
would see it as yourself. Why? I’ll let you explain that to yourself.
4. DECEMBER 5, 2013
The
date stinks. Obviously, this was my birthday. I picked this as one of the best
photos of my 2013 not just because I enjoyed watching FROZEN on the big screen
with teammates Deo and Haya. This photo reminded me that even though I never
oblige myself to celebrate every 5th of December and even if I am
far away from home, I always have some people who want to prompt me that every
year is a blessing worth enjoying and worth living. I may not be the one who
flaunts a birthday celebration but I sure take very seriously those who give
their greetings. It feels good to think that people remember. Indeed, as long
as I have friends and my jokes still work, December 5 will always be special.
3. THAT JACKET FOR A FOREVER LOST
FRIENDSHIP
Oh God. This would be so
awkward. Please don’t get me wrong. This photo is not special because it’s a
back-to-back cute selfie. *insert a marching band here*. This is more about the
jacket I am wearing on this photo. I promise that this would be the last time
that I will bring up this topic about a certain somebody who used to be a very
close friend of mine. I used to have this jacket. I wore this everyday. But
someone took it, owned it and never gave it back. “Took it”, “owned it” and
“never gave it back” are very powerful words to me because these are the same
things that happened to the trust I thought we both had. I am insanely concerned
of what my friends think of me. I don’t sleep at night knowing that a friend
won’t talk to me. But there are just some people who are not worth forgiving,
people who are not even worthy of the “friend” label. And along with the loss
of this jacket is a friendship that would be lost forever. As expected, of
course, we all should move forward. So I did.
2.
FAMILY PIC AT MY GRADUATION STAGE
If there will be a world
ranking for parents who want to give up and surrender but never do for their
children, I bet my parents will have a good fight at the top of the list. You
cannot imagine years of headaches, emotional and physical challenges just to
let their eldest son graduate when all that they have is DREAM. If you think
that sending a child to school with only hopes and dreams will not last, my
parents will give you a good run for your money at that statement. This is absolutely
one of those moments in life that I am most proud of myself. But if you’re
going to ask me what moment in my life I have been most proud of my parents, I
would say this picture should tell you everything.
1. HOME
True
enough, the importance of a photograph is not measured by the quality of the
resolution it has. It can be found on that specific moment captured by the
lens. No matter how pixelated a photo is, just like this one which I took using
my low-end phone, if the picture itself paints a thousand words and fills
various emotions, it will still be a photo you would need a lifetime to
explain. This photo right here is a picture aimlessly taken by my youngest
sister when we had one of our normal 4 PM swims in the sea. This is just few
feet away from our home. I could never replace the calmness of this very
familiar sea with a backdrop of the same sun that had been there when I needed
it most. Whenever I am home, I always find time to have some moments with
myself swimming in this large ocean thinking completely about nothing at all.
This is one of those moments where you don’t ask God “Why”. This is one of
those moments which we will always seek for the rest of our lives. Those short
moments where we can say there’s nothing we need. Moments that make us feel
complete. One of those moments where what matter most is that we’re alive.
My head still
aches out of work fatigue. My vision is still blurred from the street traffic.
I am still catching my breath even if I didn’t do anything very physically
exhausting today. A part of my haggard
brain tells me that I should not be scanning, reviewing or throwing myself back
to my old glory days by looking at some of the memorable photos I have gathered
from the last 12 months of 2013, or any previous year for that matter. It is
because my memories could cloud up my mind like a drifting kaleidoscope image
or my emotions could deliberately tell me to laugh on some moments and stop my
breathing on some seconds. But I guess it’s why they are called moments. They are
meant to be treasured.
My hands shake
as I press the last key and finish writing this. I close the laptop and manage
a big smile. 2014, here I come.#
