As I write this piece, I believe my batchmates are so busy right now burying their faces in thick books full of numbers, scanning previous exams we had from the past six semesters, and pressing the keys of their calculators too hard. Two days from now, I shall be regretting all of my not caring about the assessment exams that have been the talk-of-the-department for weeks. I may see my name at the most bottom part of the 4 posted papers which will contain the exams' results, I don't care. I accept an expected defeat. And, wait! Defeat from? This ain't any battle at all. Come on!

I noticed that only our department, the Accountancy Department, has this period of assessment exams at the start and end of the academic year. The exams are about accounting major subjects that were finished by students. Equivalently, a higher year level means an increase in the number of exams to be taken. Sophomores take an exam on Basic, Juniors on Financial, Seniors on Financial, Business Law 1, Cost 1 and Advanced 1, and for Super Seniors, I feel sick of enumerating all other subjects. I then become review-phobic. Burp!

I had the entire summer spending all my days in mobile phone, sleeping, eating and watching countless shows on DVD. I might have had a controversial cocooning for April and May but I never brought any accounting book home. The original plan was to start the review and rereading when I get back here in the campus.

I am here now! Ola! For almost two weeks. I swear, any attempt to flip a page on a book that is supposed to be reviewed feels like a touch on a fire burning. I have tried to read but my mind endlessly skips into the outer part of my virtual dimension. I think of how to score a sure 1 point in Financial Accounting when I lost all my books on this subject. And as I tried to scan my Cost and Advanced 1 books, any idea of where to start quickly melts away. Even if I don't want Ma'am Jho to be disappointed with whatever my scores will be on the two latter subjects she mentored me. But this case is inescapably unforgivable. It's not that I am in extreme indolence that I don't review. It's just that I'm too tired to do it. I have this exhaustion whose roots have long withered. Like all things conspired to blindfold me and forced me to stop moving.

Deep within, I really admire the purpose of these assessment exams which is to refresh and update the students on the knowledge and all other accounting-related stuffs that would prep them up for the judgment day: the Board Exam. Nevertheless, I don't think that I am ready enough to be refreshed and go out of the dark room I am in. It's not yet time for any reform. Just a little bit more and fixing all other loopholes that I have reinvented, I can come out. For now, I am out of the league. I'm going to give them the spots above. It'll take time for me to be BACK there. It'll take time. That is, if I still can.#