Fine. I know this may be too late. That was my plan. I wanted to post this at a time that everyone's silent and not thinking about it anymore. There was something about their story that touched me. I'm not really into getting all so hooked up with famous items. If I ever was, I bet it I was with Hollywood couples. But AJ Perez and Steph Ayson's story is something that amazes me. More amazing than Will and Kate's fairy tale.

I have read this stuff from a Yahoo! Philippines blog. At AJ's requiem on Monday, April 25, 2011 at the Christ the King Parish in Quezon City, Steph Ayson, the actor's non-showbiz girlfriend, delivered a heartbreaking eulogy.

The introduction of her eulogy reminded me of the song BURN by Tina Arena. The lines will get her in a picture of a normal girl in her school dress laughing out loud with classmates or praying silently in a church with her family. Here it goes:

"I want to be a teacher, a lawyer, and suddenly a doctor. I want to be able to write well, to sing well, and to dance well. All of those changed
except one. I knew I want to marry a guy. And his name was AJ Perez."

Just like finding friends in facebook, Steph and AJ had a mutual friend (I wish that person was named.) Meeting someone with a celebrity status should be challenging. But instead of getting so girly-girl and showing AJ a look-at-me-I-am-blushing behavior, Steph acted normal and cool. This fact makes me grin everytime. I could think of how sweaty her hands must have been plus how many times she must have filled her throat. However, she confessed that her "emotions were screaming". This scene could be a good highlight in a Koreanovela pilot episode.

Steph quoted herself as a silly girl. Just like any young girl's daydreaming tendency, she wrote their names together. Juxtaposed. Dancing in the air through her mind. She was scribbling hearts and playing Flames and she would wake up every Saturday just to watch "About Your Love." (A teen show where AJ acted in.) She would sit in front of the TV, she remembers, and watch ASAP. She was a fan and she would like to think she was the biggest fan he had.


The two met September of 2007. On
February 14, (It's Valentine's Day if you're preoccupied!) AJ asked Steph to be his girlfriend.

Her eulogy still followed:
"Cheesy, but that's AJ. Cheesy, sweet, sincere. He wanted to promise me the world, but I asked him not to. Because I was too afraid to hurt him, but he promised anyway, and he kept each one of them. He asked for my full trust. I admitted I was having a difficulty, but showed me that he knows what trust means and he'll never do anything to break that,"

"He told me that even if I don't say 'I
love you' back away or show him sweetness just like he would, his
exact words were, 'I would wait a lifetime.'"

But she is strong. Steph's best part of speech, at least for me, was:

"If this is God's way of showing me forever, I accept it... AJ taught me how to love. He was very selfless. His love was the most pure
thing on Earth. It was, in every way, unconditional. And probably that's
the message here. He wants all of us
to love the way he did also."

Steph emphasized that AJ made her so happy, and even to his last day, he would talk to her and tell her that, "I want you always to be happy. I don't want you sad. I want you to smile a lot. You know why? Because I love you."

Steph ended her eulogy: "To my
baby, you'll always be in my heart. Thank you for making my dreams come true. I'll take care of your family for you. And I'll love the way you loved me."

Heartbreaking, isn't it? I really used to think that Jamie and Landon's lines in A WALK TO REMEMBER were too melodramatic. But when someone you love and treasure most leaves like that, to say that "I will you." will be a very heavy understatement. Well, I haven't been in a situation as close as this. But thanks to Nicholas Sparks and Asian Drama Series, it all makes sense after all.

I follow Steph Ayson on Twitter (@stephayson). I read her page a lot. Hoping I could read stuffs like, "Why him?", "I can't take it anymore?", "What have I done wrong?", "This could be the end", etc. Fortunately, I didn't find any. Even if I don't know what it is that runs through her mind with this striking situation, just reading her tweets will make you realize that she's strong and open-minded. She is showing acceptance at the time she needs it the most.

This is life after all. We own it but we have fate.#